All the time, my head is so full. There are so many words and feelings and sounds I can't get out. I have never wanted to write a blog before. Never wanted to talk to others. I keep to myself, even with my friends. I think they would describe me as avoidant. I guess they're right. I don't see what's wrong with that but I started counselling for it anyway. I wish I knew how to start a blog. How to just talk freely without watching myself from a 3rd perspective. How to get the words out onto the screen. Actually, it's getting easier as I go.
Although, I'm not sure where to go from here. What to talk about? I have full control over something for once, I didn't think it would overwhelm me like this. All I know is I need to be careful of divulging too much personal information. I've never even read a blog, I'm not sure what possessed me to do this. Sorry that I keep circling back on that.
I guess this is the first official blogpost. If anyone reads this, I just want to be heard. I don't care that it's poorly written, or that I sound like a loser (I am), or that there's no narrative. I just. want to be heard. Please. I think I know why people pray now
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